Happy Holidays Y'all

I really did have every intention of coming back, and it was something that I was looking forward to. This year has been really such an insane whirlwind of WTF moments, but Jeremy and I seemed to be doing better and I figured what else could go wrong - I figured I'd be ending the year off well. I just needed to keep a positive attitude. And then I found out Jeremy cheated. We won't get into the details because it really doesn't matter, but it was multiple times, multiple people and has probably been going on for... Well, lets just say awhile. So I really didn't mean to come back and give false promises. It's just that he moved out and now I'm just. Juggling things and trying to figure it all out. I'm not feeling very positive. I'm not a lot of fun to be around right now. India Arie does a great cover of Don Henley's "Heart Of The Matter" and in it there's a line that says "There are people in your life who've come and gone/They've let you down, you know they've hurt your pride/better put it all behind you 'cause life goes on/you keep carrying that anger, it'll eat you up inside." The whole song is about Forgiveness - how life is complicated and hard and you need to move on and forgive. And that's too hard for me right now - I'm so angry and hurt. But I'll get there, because it'll do so much good for me. I'm just... Not there yet. I may be back some time - but I really can't give a date and I can't say yes or no and at this point I know there is no way I could promise any sort of consistent posting, and I don't want to bail on y'all yet again. I'm sorry. I hope y'all have a very happy holiday. Here's to kickin ass in 2015, cuz it's gotta be better than this, right? Thanks for everything y'all.